Hello ppl. Well, haven't been feeling too good lately. (Not sick but more on stress being built up by the surroundings). Yes, the kids@work event is coming up next week. (One of the major reason y im in this state now..) And i tell u, the way the ppl in the this bank do their work.. its totally last minute. Like me now, rushing things last minute as well. We could have done everything earlier, or rather by now, we should be doing last minute preparation for the event instead of still running around confirming stuffs, getting ppl etc. That should be done long ago! But well, we're working with this current schedule. So yes, cant do anything much except shout out here and blow off some steam. Basically, i can foresee lots of problems coming soon, just that at the current moment i still have faith that everything will be ok and trying my best not to worry too much. The poor response of the volunteers is already making me feel like being fried on a saucepan but I still have to hope and pray and chase ppl to process certain stuffs for me. Its like, im in a position thats more like a messenger. Must go through the right channel.. so.. which also means that.. my team did the stuffs.. wanna confirm with me.. but i cant confirm with them.. coz i do not have the power to do so. Therefore, i have to seek the marketing ppl to confirm i can proceed before i can carry out. If I tried to proceed first, everything will be back to sq 1. Won't agree to this, its too dangerous for that. its not possible for this, dun agree on that. So.. If there are so many disagreements, just tell us what to do. Isn't it simpler? Instead of trying to tap on our 'creative' juices and tell us.. no no no. Oh well.

Anyway, something major happened today. In fact, Im very very very disappointed with the team itself. All along I thought the meetings and the discussions are going on very well, everyone is clear on what is going to happen on the event day, their duties, what to look out for, what time the event company/food company would come in.. placements of stuffs etc. But I was so so so so so wrong. In the end, only a few, no. Only 3 ppl know what is actually happening. Out of 13 only 3? Hello. So all along, does it mean that no one has been listening to the meeting itself? Or am i too naive to think that they will be responsible for their work and dun need to spoonfeed information for them? If i have to tell everyone their own personal duties, what they gotta do, who they gotta find.. Thn can someone tell me what do i have to do? Hai~! I'm just feeling lousy now. But I still have confidence with this team. No matter what, its still the first time everyone has to hold a major event. So its natural that there are alot of things we might miss out. Can't blame them for this as well.

On the good side, well, at least we discovered this thing early. Can you imagine that if its not cleared till the event day itself. It'll be total chaos on that day! So ya, now that i've made everyone to take down notes and the exact timing on what will happen etc, at least, i hope, everything will be much clearer instead of simply... err.. i dunno leh..

I still owe these ppl an apology too, forcing them to come down from all their locations to clear everything up. I dont wanna end up in a situation that everybody doesnt know anything. So ya. If i have offended you in any way, Im Sorry. But its a job that we have to do. Having 'half day leave' from work for meeting doesnt necessary means that we can go home early, in times like this, i think its necessary to come down for this instance. I hope im not too harsh.

Argh. Whats happening...

I tried my best to smile when i wake up in the morning... hoping that everything will be good and smooth.. but murphy's law is always right. Each time i stepped into the branch itself.. everything just turns from a smile to a sulk. Can someone motivate me for now? I can't find any inspiration it seems..


It will be a better day tomorrow... it will..