Something is seriously wrong with me recently.. err.. my temper will flare up easily.. guess i'll need anger management courses soon.. haha.. (ok not to that extent). but then, right after i've shouted or vented out my anger, i regret for doing that. I've just shouted at a salesman today. He's being too persistant on wanting my mom to buy ice cream. At first, i just let my mum handle the salesman, and she rejected him quite a number of times. however, this young salesman just kept going n going n going... til i cant take it anymore and i went to the door n tell him off. I merely said "look, my mum has already said she doesn't want it, don't u get it?!" ok maybe not said.. its louder than a normal tone.. hee.. poor boy.. i think he must have been shocked. sorry dude. din really mean it.. u were just kinda irritating. of course i've got my own scolding from my mum as well, for being so rude. hai~!


Have to change my attitude i tell ya, if this continues, i'll just get into trouble one day. this is the third time i've flared up unnecessarily. The previous two were against 2 subjects, one was a young boy who was caught glue-sniffing and the other, an accused who tried to run away from us. And all the time, i regret for committing the act. well, for the ice-cream boy, i could have just told him no and close the door. (at least i wont feel THAT guilty?!) haha. damn. im bad. err, for the other two, i think they deserved the told off, but maybe i was slightly too harsh.


Am i that harsh to everyone? I dunno man. You guys tell me. Somehow, i feel that my temper is getting bad. I get frustrated easily. I get angry for no reason. I'm like some idiot just looking for trouble. At times i feel that my pride n ego is getting to my head. shit. this is bad news. Damn.