Straightened out some thoughts finally.. after hearing and listening from everyone. Thanks ppl, for being the listening ear and giving me opinions. Well, this is what I've come to after long thoughts for the past few days.

In the end, I think editor is not my cup of tea. Not that I dislike media industry or whatsoever. Well, in a way, I don't suit into the life as an editor. Yes. Passion for Film, Sound & Video. But well, this passion in fact has long been dead. And I realised it already during part of my NS but I just don't believe it myself. I just wanna give it a shot to see if its due to the lack of practice or really the flame has died. Now that I've gave my shot. I've come to my verdict even though its abit too fast u may say. But hey, from a job that I'm supposed to be happy with it till a stage like this is terrible. To me, I think this is suited more for a hobby, something that I will still like to do.. but not professionally that is. I'm not someone that can sit down there for the whole day and communicate with the computer only. I mean I have a sharp butt (You know what I mean) I have to move around. Talk to ppl, get exposure and contacts and so on. Im not someone who can stay in office. At least, that little doubt in me has been confirmed. I don't see myself doing this kind of thing for the next 10 yrs. Which is also why, since I'm still young, to change a jobscope or industry all together. A new yr is coming soon.. and that might just be the day that I'm looking at a new perspective, new angle and new future. I've been in a mess for sometime. I think I was still able to clear this up. Sorry to those who believed that I can make it. I failed. Thanks to those who listened to my complains & naggings. Basically, toodar and the unbeatable bunch.

To my future endeavours, cheers.