This will be a long post i guess.. Its been really a long long while since i last update anything here ya? Oh well..lots of things happened.. i do have to agree that human beings have to adapt to changes quickly as this is the one and only thing that will not change. Sounds like a pun eh? Well if you sit back and think about it, i believe that all of you will have to agree with it. Everything keeps changing. And nothing can stop it from not changing.

The last post i had was exams ya? ha. its the same this time round.. exams again. Darn. Really hate it. And this time round, the thing that is tormenting me is again finance stuff again. Investment module. Wonder how am i going to pass again. Well as for my business finance, i had past year paper to deal with it. This time round, i had nothing. Study everything la. Well, not as easy. Hai.. Took a week plus of leave just to concentrate on this paper... hope i can clear it.. *prays*

A major thing happened to my mum a few months back.. she is finally recovered now.. my mum went for a harmless genting trip back in june. However, this harmless trip ended up being very harmful as she ended up having fever of 40C and going in and out of hospital. She stayed there for 2 full months and nothing was known on what is the infection that caused her to be this bad. There were even times that i thought i might lose her as she began hallucinating and everything just got from bad to worse. It was really the darkest period of my life.. Juggling between work, school and hospital. Thinking back, there were countless times that i don't know what to do and feel like throwing the towel and leave everything to fate. Oh well, somewhat, i managed to hold on... bare minimum though. My mum's nightmare didn't end there, she was transferred back to a rehab hospital for another month and eventually back to the primary hospital for another two weeks before coming back home. Hai. What a long journey and worst thing is, the cause is still unknown. Lots of strange diseases coming out these days though... 2012.. end of the world? *shrugs*

Work hasn't been really smooth-sailing. Disrupted by reservist and exams.. am still unable to excel in this job. Oh well, the bad thing is, self doubt starts to occur as it seems like im unable to perform in this job.. but of course. given the market situation, i have to pull through it.. or maybe i'll need a change of environment. am not sure how that is going to end up though. We'll see.. Changes in the management too.. SEE. Changes are happening at such a frantic pace.

Love, well has been pretty good i would say.. but of course there are times of minor conflicts and resolutions were settled rather quickly. Toodar has also stood by me in a number of trying moments and really appreciate her for that. Well, let's hope that everything is good... as long as possible..heh..

Hai.. 315am now.. am supposed to read up abit more before sleeping.. but somehow, the mind is reluctant in studying. It has been like this for a while now and that's not good. I wish i know how to train my mind back to a student mind... or was i ever in that state? ha..

To sum it up, well, life is always about challenges i guess, if it was ever so easy, no one would treasure life as it is. treasure yr love ones as you might lose them at any moment. live life to the fullest. strike a balance between work and play. think positive and take on the challenges ahead. you hold your own destiny. it depends on how you want to shape it.