Well, i've recovered (ok recovered for some time.. im just lazy k?). but another fever is burning right now.. its the World Cup! haha.. yep. soccer fever is on.. n all asian teams are out (again). hai~! when will asia finally have a say in the world? this just proved that 2002 was a fluke eh? but then again, over at the refreeing side, hey hey! a singaporean ref has made it to the top! yes. samsul maidin is the top refree in this world cup so far, beating famous refrees like graham poll n so on.. hmm.. talk abt singapore pride eh? (maybe they should just engage asian refrees and do away with the teams. hahaha... n wait where is singapore national team? err... 20 years away from smelling the little asian cup.)


anyway, i guess its abt time to brush up my editing or whatsoever skills all over again. yes. its like turning a full circle and now im back to where i've just began. im facing graduation all over again. n this time, i will be in the working world. ha. i see ord date coming... time to do up my portfolio... n so on..


Lastly, someone had just said i looked like a prc in my photos. oh my god, thats the biggest insult i've heard. this has just proved that a picture do tell a thousand words. a thousand of wrong words. haha... enjoyz.

boo. chee mun has officially lost the internal battle inside my body... running nose n fever getting worse.. not forgetting i had vomitted earlier. hai~! doc where r u? its time for me to get an actual mc. haha.. hai~!


too sick to even think properly now i think.. damn. u guys enjoyz.


im wondering.. im still longing for.. im still dreaming.. im.. im.. im selfish.

DRATS. BAD DAY. It was supposed to be a happy day isnt it? gathering with friends for dinner, celebrating my birthday n watching the soccer match after that... it was all going fine, till bad things happened one after another.


Well, met my yck pals for dinner before we head down to momo area for a drink and watch the soccer match between england and paraguay. Bad Omen no.1 : I felt sick, earlier in the day.. and it was proven later in the night whereby im down with fever.. Bad Omen no.2: I lost the england bet. yes i know, everyone who has bet through online bookie or outside bookie has won money.. but i chose to bet with singapore pools. and the result? disappointing 1-0 win for england. Cant they just score one more then i'll make some money?! hai~!.. nvm.. Bad Omen no.3: my hp went crazy. YES my dear O2 phone went crazy. I mean what the fuck?! not that i've dropped it into the pool or i've dropped it on the floor. I have protected my phone so well. and what?! the phone died on me. the screen will not respond to my finger nor stylus. fiak. Now i'll tell u the disadvantage of touch screen phone. Once the screen wont respond, U'll feel like killing it. I nearly did. even with million times of reset, its the same. O2 care centre tomorrow i guess. Fiak. Bad Omen no.4: It was drizzling on my way back home. (link to next bad omen) Bad Omen no.5: I've beat the red light. I fucking beat the red light and i've felt a flash of blue light. I am so fucking crazy. Here it goes, I was approaching AMK Ave 1 junction at around 70km/h (within speed limit). So as i approached the junction, the lights turned amber. Sensing that i can pass the it easily, i sped up. (i couldn't stop either.. the floor is wet and im near to the lines...) n since i knew that it was a camera junction i focused on the traffic lights on my left while i pass the stop line. Amber. Ok safe, I thought. So i look ahead and continue my way home.. Suddenly, i felt a blue flash, flashing once behind me. I was shocked. I'm not sure whether that light came from the camera or some headlight of a fucking vehicle. (i keep telling myself its a vehicle, which i know its just.... unreal.) Whatever fuck. Now everything has gone totally wrong, and im going to be $200 poorer and 12 points robbed. not forgetting i may even be attending a court case. FIAK.


When the day is bad... its fucking bad. Someone to save me pls? GOD? I dunno man. Damn. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY?! I feel damn fucking lousy now. June 30. Thats the day I'll know whether will i be a happy man or not. Fiak. (TP pls tell me that camera has no film.. pls pls pls).. *praying*

07/06/06. A special day? Na. Rather not. Nothing too exciting or whatsoever. A birthday simply means u are getting older by another yr. ha. Hmm.. we tend to celebrate our 18 or 21 birthday like hell.. make it damn big or what.. but then.. once u pass 21, the birthdays after that is just... a mundane thing. so. silent n quiet as it is.. the day passed.


But then, weekend is still something to look forward to. :) meeting sec school pals and also that great bunch, well. friends are damn great isnt it? hahaha...


22 yrs old now. Considered old enough to know what i want to do in the future. But sadly, no. im still here, turning circles and not knowing where this blind rat is heading. Will the future be smooth? or is it gonna be a damn rocky ride... Anyway, the thought of studying is back again. Looking at the differences between dip holders n deg holders, well. (maybe im biased) but in the force, its totally diff. one is to take all the shit, the other? to dump all the shit out. Funny isn't it? Well, thats y.. nvm. dun wanna get myself into trouble for defamation. ha.


What am i doing? I dunno.

Something is seriously wrong with me recently.. err.. my temper will flare up easily.. guess i'll need anger management courses soon.. haha.. (ok not to that extent). but then, right after i've shouted or vented out my anger, i regret for doing that. I've just shouted at a salesman today. He's being too persistant on wanting my mom to buy ice cream. At first, i just let my mum handle the salesman, and she rejected him quite a number of times. however, this young salesman just kept going n going n going... til i cant take it anymore and i went to the door n tell him off. I merely said "look, my mum has already said she doesn't want it, don't u get it?!" ok maybe not said.. its louder than a normal tone.. hee.. poor boy.. i think he must have been shocked. sorry dude. din really mean it.. u were just kinda irritating. of course i've got my own scolding from my mum as well, for being so rude. hai~!


Have to change my attitude i tell ya, if this continues, i'll just get into trouble one day. this is the third time i've flared up unnecessarily. The previous two were against 2 subjects, one was a young boy who was caught glue-sniffing and the other, an accused who tried to run away from us. And all the time, i regret for committing the act. well, for the ice-cream boy, i could have just told him no and close the door. (at least i wont feel THAT guilty?!) haha. damn. im bad. err, for the other two, i think they deserved the told off, but maybe i was slightly too harsh.


Am i that harsh to everyone? I dunno man. You guys tell me. Somehow, i feel that my temper is getting bad. I get frustrated easily. I get angry for no reason. I'm like some idiot just looking for trouble. At times i feel that my pride n ego is getting to my head. shit. this is bad news. Damn.