Gonna be going for my night shift soon... hai~!


hmm.. nothing much to put into here as well.. these few weeks has been rather mundane.. practically the similar stuff everyday.. morning shift night shift off off.. <-- thats my schedule, to break it down, after morning shift, i'll either go home to rest (weekdays) or out to meet up with friends (weekends). before night shift, i'll be at gym/swimming. First off (spend to sleep) Second off, Home slacking/gym + swimming (weekdays), Out with friends (weekends). Yep. That is my daily routine now.. haha.. very boring right? haha.. nah.. who cares?! haha..


A question that is constantly asked in my head, am i ready to have these routine for the next two yrs? well.. i dun think so. so there goes my answer for the sign on part. besides, i wont be guaranteed that i'll be back at the same division, same NPC and working on office hours. so.. well.. nah. though i will have to miss my degree after these two yrs, but i guess i'll just have to wait for abit longer before getting my degree.. look at what the industry can offer me. haha...
well, 2 yrs of irrelevant work and 2 yrs of relevant work makes a big diff of coz. Even after my degree, i can only start from below as no matter what, i have no experience. For 2 yrs of experience, though not alot, but at least, i can see where im heading and where i'll be. Probably I can continue even without a degree? Besides, this industry is diff from others. Yes a degree counts, but at times, experience is more important than degree. hai~! thats the singapore education system, a piece of paper counts alot. However, a degree, at times, will lead u to nowhere. Ok ok, dun point yr knives at me, not that a degree is no good. I only said at TIMES. Sometimes, to study a non-relevant degree.. it doesnt really help does it? Well, to me that is.
Till i get my future sorted, my degree will wait. As i'll get my degree relevant to the job that im in. As for now, i'll just wait for ORD.

Went to cut my hair today... kinda have a punk look hairstyle.. (not sure will i be slaughtered during tomorrow's inspection) haha... ya. anyway.. im rather quite happy with myself over the weekend.. did quite a number of stuffs that i wanted to do and what i had written down earlier..


gym- done. running-done. wash bike/paste stickers-done. cut hair-done.


things to do the following weeks: still pondering whether to sign on, buy tops! get my resume done, prepare my portfolio, get an insurance policy done, err.. that should be abt it i guess...


anyway, met my sec school friends just now.. its been decades since i last saw them.. and we had just calculated. 9 yrs to be exact, we have known each other.. time flies huh? haha.. we have the thought of celebrating of our 10th friendship anniversary next new yr. haha.. am looking forward to that! haha..


hai~! somehow, when its nearing ORD, alot of questions just keep popping up. What's next now that im done with NS? *ponders*

Been awhile since i last post eh? yep. been busy with my npc's retreat thingy.. spent three days there being a cameraman and ended up working up working my night shift in the last day of the retreat due to lack of manpower. Damn tired la. Super lack of sleep. Once I reached home yesterday afternoon, i hit the bed immediately. and this is where i end up. waking up super early in the morning coz i guess i have more than enough sleep yesterday. haha.


anyway, i started playing lan games (warcraft dotta) just the other day with the npc mates. all of us are getting hooked with lan gaming i guess.. coz we are discussing when is our next session! haha... ok la. once in a while play this type of games. nothing else to do anyway. hee...


Next. lots of things to do coming up. Cut hair. Wash bike. Paste bike stickers. Buy clothes. Run. Gym. Swim? Gathering stuffs for portfolio.


One idea hit me recently. Should i sign on for two yrs after i ORD and get my degree during this time? SIM course will start this sep, and it takes 1 1/2 yrs to complete. (im gonna ord in nov). Haha.. fancy me kept saying no to sign on and now, im actually thinking of signing on for other reasons. Get a decent pay while im still studying. Hmm... *ponders*

*yawnz* another late nite chatting session with the guys.. hmm.. someday, i will be very late i promise. haha... it has always been me being very early (even though im already late -.-") so i have to be later than everyone. make sure one of them reaches the place before i leave my house. hahha... <-- no la, im not that evil. haha..


anyway, mark suggested that we should do wakeboarding someday... great idea actually.. i love the sun, sand and the sea! (NO, im not promoting NAVY) haha.. not forgetting the babes. haha.. oops. A change of routines probably? Always hanging out in town... its time to hang out at the beach! haha.. rollerblade, wakeboarding, cycling, beach volleyball, etc... Talking abt the beach, its time we should go to sentosa someday. WE ALWAYS ENDED UP NOT GOING for the past few times. OEI.


Another thing, mark is interested to join sengkang punggol.. his ex-coach is there.. i have alot of teammates there.. should i bring my boots down from the hanger and have a final straw or should i continue to hang my boots? ORD during Nov, S-League season ends earlier than that. *ponders* soccer vs life which one eventually wins?
if i choose back the soccer route, it'll be like before.. no life. training n games on weekends...
if i choose life, then of coz everything remains the same and i can still play at a social level...


a part of me wants to give a final straw and prove that i still have what it takes.. another part of me knows that im not where i was before.. all the national youth call ups and excellent performances, can only be a memory. i might be worse than an amatuer keeper now. hai~!


well, if IF one day during yr 2006, you see a particular No. 22 Loke Chee Mun sitting on the bench for sengkang punggol's s-league game, thn u will know what route i have chosen. if not, watch the tv credits to find my name.. haha... asst producer/asst cam/grip/etc... till thn. nitez.

Goodbye My Lover


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me. (x2)


I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

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Goodbye.

Bad day today.. super i tell u. started with a bus accident this morning at amk, the school bus flipped after colliding with another bus... a smrt (trans island) bus.. thn the news of a fellow police officer killed himself.. hai~! to think that i have just seen him a few days ago in the stn... now.. passed away.. shot himself in his head.. after that came the news of a outrage of modesty incident... whereby we searched high n low for the culprit but to no avail. finally came an arrest case of a insane man... this one consumed alot of our energy.. coz he is damn big size.. alot of strength to pin him down and even more strength to push him into our car.. a total of 6 men i tell u.. thats how jia lak it was... hai~! one got bitten on his buttocks, i've got a kick from him, two other officers injured their fingers. now thats what u call cruel. to officers that is. haha...


was rather happy when the bad shift was over... went to do some gym work and running before debriefing and returning home (finally doing something that i should have done long ago, injured la.. bo bianz) muscles aching now but.. shiok! haha.. thinking of swimming and gym tomorrow as well.. shall i? hee... but on night shift leh... hmm....


oh ya anyway.. recently am interested in looking for unit trust funds to invest in.. was recommended a few by one of my colleagues.. learnt alot from him too.. now its to see where should i invest in. gonna create one portfolio soon. let the money grow! haha. interested? go to www.fundsupermart.com to find out more. :) confused or not sure? ask yr personal banker or financial advisor.. (NOT ME). Hee..

my tummy is feeling weird... real weird recently, guess its probably the cny food n stuffs. hai~!


shit. i'm having another insomnia spell. its 5:21am and im still awake.. not forgetting i'll be working later at around 7am. my whole clock is messed up. i just hope my life is not messed up. or is it?


read a good book recently, tuesdays with morrie. lets u look at the way of life differently, and how the society has already blinded us from alot of things. want to know more? read it. haha


well, emo spell is hitting everyone again it seems? is it contagious? its like a passing baton.. a to b.. b to c.. c to d.. and then all gets emo. -.-" i dun remember all of us having so many emo spells last time. what happened to all of us?! is it a sign telling us that something is missing in our lives? or is this what we have to face when we are reaching ORD?

if i can, can i turn back time and return to the happy four friends days? the happy days. now? i dunno. emo days?


no more emo spells for me i hope. and to one of my buddies, recover soon. we'll be there. no matter what difficulties is there or consequences u will have to face. we'll be there and help u to the best we could. even if the problem is among us. we'll try to resolve it. thats what friends are for. at least, having a person to share with u is better than keeping it alone. seeing u unhappy saddens us, as no one wants to see an unhappy u. we want a happy good old friend.