Man...

After a long long week, tomorrow is the day. Whereby we will either produce a wonderful and exciting time for the kids and impress our employers or we will be banished to hell and will hide from management forever. Ha..

Yes yes, Kids@Work is tomorrow. *Stress stress stress* After spending such a long time planning, going through lots of shite from everywhere, both melvin and my backs probably have a few more knives by now, finally its here.

Ok nothing much to add today too. My mind is just full of the program details and how it will be run tomorrow. It has to be successful for sure.

And.. I'll try to sleep now..

And... .... ... ... ...

I'm thinking of her.... toot toot dar~

ok im going nuts now. sleep.

Hello ppl. Well, haven't been feeling too good lately. (Not sick but more on stress being built up by the surroundings). Yes, the kids@work event is coming up next week. (One of the major reason y im in this state now..) And i tell u, the way the ppl in the this bank do their work.. its totally last minute. Like me now, rushing things last minute as well. We could have done everything earlier, or rather by now, we should be doing last minute preparation for the event instead of still running around confirming stuffs, getting ppl etc. That should be done long ago! But well, we're working with this current schedule. So yes, cant do anything much except shout out here and blow off some steam. Basically, i can foresee lots of problems coming soon, just that at the current moment i still have faith that everything will be ok and trying my best not to worry too much. The poor response of the volunteers is already making me feel like being fried on a saucepan but I still have to hope and pray and chase ppl to process certain stuffs for me. Its like, im in a position thats more like a messenger. Must go through the right channel.. so.. which also means that.. my team did the stuffs.. wanna confirm with me.. but i cant confirm with them.. coz i do not have the power to do so. Therefore, i have to seek the marketing ppl to confirm i can proceed before i can carry out. If I tried to proceed first, everything will be back to sq 1. Won't agree to this, its too dangerous for that. its not possible for this, dun agree on that. So.. If there are so many disagreements, just tell us what to do. Isn't it simpler? Instead of trying to tap on our 'creative' juices and tell us.. no no no. Oh well.

Anyway, something major happened today. In fact, Im very very very disappointed with the team itself. All along I thought the meetings and the discussions are going on very well, everyone is clear on what is going to happen on the event day, their duties, what to look out for, what time the event company/food company would come in.. placements of stuffs etc. But I was so so so so so wrong. In the end, only a few, no. Only 3 ppl know what is actually happening. Out of 13 only 3? Hello. So all along, does it mean that no one has been listening to the meeting itself? Or am i too naive to think that they will be responsible for their work and dun need to spoonfeed information for them? If i have to tell everyone their own personal duties, what they gotta do, who they gotta find.. Thn can someone tell me what do i have to do? Hai~! I'm just feeling lousy now. But I still have confidence with this team. No matter what, its still the first time everyone has to hold a major event. So its natural that there are alot of things we might miss out. Can't blame them for this as well.

On the good side, well, at least we discovered this thing early. Can you imagine that if its not cleared till the event day itself. It'll be total chaos on that day! So ya, now that i've made everyone to take down notes and the exact timing on what will happen etc, at least, i hope, everything will be much clearer instead of simply... err.. i dunno leh..

I still owe these ppl an apology too, forcing them to come down from all their locations to clear everything up. I dont wanna end up in a situation that everybody doesnt know anything. So ya. If i have offended you in any way, Im Sorry. But its a job that we have to do. Having 'half day leave' from work for meeting doesnt necessary means that we can go home early, in times like this, i think its necessary to come down for this instance. I hope im not too harsh.

Argh. Whats happening...

I tried my best to smile when i wake up in the morning... hoping that everything will be good and smooth.. but murphy's law is always right. Each time i stepped into the branch itself.. everything just turns from a smile to a sulk. Can someone motivate me for now? I can't find any inspiration it seems..


It will be a better day tomorrow... it will..

After one whole hectic week, yes im back to work... barely alive. Fatigue is seriously catching up these days. Lots of meetings to go to.. projects to be done. My brain is now like working as a dual processer in a hyper mode. And most of the time, its to meet dateline. All thanks to reservist. Yes. When i return to office on the first day, its like a whopping 135 emails for me to read. And yes, most of them are quite important ones as they are responses from companies liaising with our bank's events. On top of that, i still have other ad-hoc work to do... and yes, like i mentioned before, the edits do play apart in this added stress as well. But at least i really had a good lift from toodar whereby she came back one of the sundays during my reservist for her interview with JAL. Gave me a surprise call on sunday itself. Ha.. But think someone up there has planned something for us.. I just happen to have a walk out on monday night itself! So yes, met her up and we chat and chat (as usual) before i return to camp later in the nite.. That was seriously an -off- day for my mind and lifts my mood as well.

Not for long though...

Unlucky these days? *shrugs* I dunno man. Its like a bad spell being cast on me these days. And when i most needed an equipment or stuff, it has to fail on me for that particular day or nite. Dropped my phone in camp, LCD cracked, phone went bonkers. had to buy a new one. And at that point of time, i really wanted to have a short chat with sher before i go n sleep. Man.. Come weekend, camera failed on darius when he wanted to do edit.. so he passed it to me. it failed me as well,when i tried to transfer video files into the com. Rushed like crazy, went around to search for another camera in order to transfer the video as its a rush edit.. (the wedding dinner is the following nite!) After the wedding shoot, (at nite) I have to rush home in order to have an earlier rest coz i have to work the next day. It has to freaking rain. And its heavy downpour for a few hours mind u. What the..... Became a zombie at work the following day. Ha. earlier i said bought a new phone rite? My sim card failed me. It was unable to connect for freaking long.. and suddenly it just gets connected again. Man.. Just at that time i need to call my colleague to check on something. Note: this is a new sim card! Have to head down to starhub tomorrow.. WHATS HAPPENING? Well, these are just some of the major events that left a super huge impression in my brain. But the silver lining for all these is that, it managed to get resolved in the end. (of coz after tonnes and gallons of prespiration released from stress during the period)

Like Daniel Powter's song... Because you had a bad day. You're taking one down. You sing a sad song just to turn it around. You say you don't know. You tell me don't lie. You work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day. The camera don't lie. You're coming back down and you really don't mind. You had a bad day.

Well, change the lyrics in the song pls.. from You pls change it to I.

Alrighty. Time to end this sad stuff on a happier note. Next year I will be studying for sure. The letter has came. Its confirmed. And im going to enroll in soon. (no longer just registering.. haha..)

Peace Out.
P.S. Give me some good days soon ya? Thanks.