Its a sat nite!


I can only wonder y am i at home.. haha..

ok emo mood over. hahah... (at least i recovered fast eh? hahah)


Anyway, darius n one of my colleague just planted me with a big qs again. Ok maybe i should be decided by now, but hell no. Im still not sure what im gonna do. Damn rite? haha.. oh yeah. the sickening qs of the month... What are u going to do after ORD?


Thats it. I tell ya, i seriously have no idea 5 yrs from now where will i be. Am i interested in media? Yes for sure. Am i interested in being a cameraman? Sort of. Editor? Maybe... Producer? Not exactly.. Director? I doubt myself. Designer? Hmm.... Sports journalist? I seriously would 'chop' the soccer part! haha... <-- see im not even decided which post i wanna specialised in. Hai~! Im really not sure man. I may even end up in mediacorp n work for shit to learn all abt lightings n stuff before striking out on my own or go for further studies.. Hmm.. i dun mind being a news cameraman. haha.. Hee... err.. we'll see what happens n what positions are available.... try out first ba. til i find a desired job, then i'll stay.. that should be the way i guess.. for now. haha...

Well, kat's father funeral is over.. n i felt bad actually after hearing alot of things from daniel... from 2 posts ago, i've wondered how was she doing and all that. This sudden thought just came to me. But.. Why am i just afraid or rather refused to make that sms or call? One simple sms or call wouldn't kill me. Damn. N you must be thinking, what does one sms or phonecall make any difference to her? Well, at least, having someone close to offer a listening ear, someone who understands her plight, feels for her.. someone that she can relate to.. someone that she can turn to when she had problems. Someone who was so close to her in the past. Someone that had truely understand her and was her best friend. Yet that someone did not even bother at all. I felt bad. Seriously. The guilt of being away when someone needed a friend around. I know i shouldn't, but well, during a point of time that yr kin has just passed away, you'll realise how important your close friends are to you. Every single one of them. I have to thank chris, ryan, darius n mark. Without these guys, I dunno how i can get on with life back then. Im sorry kat. I really do. But i know its not enough.


Ugly n nasty july, it just gets worse isn't it? Hai~!. Shit. After so long, i have to admit something. Im tired of finding an escape route. After i had seen her, THAT feeling just hit me. After shunning away for so long, thinking that it'll be all fine and time heals everything. I've failed. Just the sight of seeing her shedding tears, my heart has melted. I wanna protect her, I wanna be there for her when she needs me. I wanna be the one to look after her and only bring happiness to her n never the tears. ARGHH. But i know i shouldn't. I should move on. I cant keep dwelling on the same spot. This particular sentence has been used last yr! Fuck. What am i doing?!


Im bad at dealing with affairs of the heart. If there's a test, i'll probably flunk with a result 0.

I dont like july.. seriously, every yr around this time of the year, i'll hear bad news abt friends, have personal problems or something has just happened. never the good news. july is just not a good month. true enough, another bad news is out. Kat's father has just passed away on the 19th. If u guys have any free-lance jobs do let her know abt it. Not doing too well i guess.


nothing much to update too. lazy. bored. not in the mood. ord soon? ha. still cant see whats ahead. watever ~! enjoyz peeps. live yr life to the fullest. peace out

There u go... the dust has settled and the world cup is over.. Italy is the winner. (ok its outdated as they won on the 9th). Anyway, lots of incidents to remember for this world cup. One major incident is of coz mr Zidane's head butt.. hmm.. his head must have made of steel. haha.. even if he used his arms or legs to hit the italian player, the end result is the same. its still a red card offence.. but y the head? to prove that not only his heading power can score goals during france 98 final, he can also make a person fly with the same power in 2006 final. that is the 'legend' for you. In fact, this world cup is kinda boring as most teams are playing with ten men behind the ball and throw a striker forward. and hopefully they will have a counter attack and score from that. france is doing that, so does italy. not forgetting portugal, england and some other teams. boring boring boring. its all abt winning 1-0 and defend the lead. (for england, they'll be happy for a 0-0. they are playing such boring football as if they were leading 3-0 and stroking the ball happily between midfield n defence.)


Ok fair enough, we do see some great matches, like arg n serb. (u just cant stop cheering) and ita n ger. (end to end football). k i admit. i miss korean's high pressure and pacy football. where are all the running n closing down by the red devils of asia? missing. heat? ya maybe. cant believe they have high temperatures like singapore.. 35 C 36C... unbelievable. I've thought european countries are supposed to be cold? haha...


Hmm.. I'm being transferred to office hours again! woohoo. haha.. sat n sun offs.. im coming.. (i looked like an unwanted child thats being thrown around from department to department but nah... they need me for my professional skills. heh heh) arrogant idiot. haha. damn me. im just joking ok, dun feel offended.


And... Ord is coming coming coming. its july.. *calculates* i can see nov! haha... *ponders* i was supposed to go for a taiwan trip after ord... well, its was now. :( Ha. not forgetting that chris kept reminding me that the lead actress in cao ge's superwoman mtv looked like my ex-gf. especially the side angle that is. THANKS AH, chris. Well, been sometime since i've last contacted her.. wonder how's she now.. hmm... nah. nvm. hai~! sometimes, what's not meant to be, cant be forced to be. leave everything to fate, luck, whatever. if its meant to be, thn its meant to be.
Single? nah.. its not THAT bad...