On the last day of 2006... Here's what I wished for my great pals in 2007..

Chris: To advance in yr career and have more off days for yrslf.. Getting a car licence as well?
Darius: To be able to find a job, do well in it and finding a proper gf, not... etc. (you know what i mean)
Fugene: To relax yrslf, give yrslf more breaks.. And time to seriously change yr job, switch company and earn what you truely deserved
Mark: To be able to find what you truely enjoy in yr career path and to find a nice gf. You have a certain charisma. So we have no worries about u. ha. And YA! To be less fussy.
Ryan: To have more confidence in yourslf, believe what you believe in and do what you feel like doing. Open up yrslf more to others, you'll attract a nice gal along the way. :)
Belle: Remain contactable. Ha.
Qinyun: Changing jobs soon too? Heh. Good luck gal. Cheers to yr future job.

And finally my toodar..

Sher: To embark on a wonderful flying career in 2007, going to places you love to go, having an enjoyable stay for the next 2 yrs, staying happy and cheerful always, retaining the same lovely character that you always have and stay loving as toodar sher. Yr toodar mun will be here, waiting for u, patiently. :)

2007, for myself will be a step to see where my future lies. The clearer picture is still not out yet. Probably by end jan, maybe everything will be much clearer? Yeah. I have taken the risk. So now it depends whether will it backfire or will I do well in it. Wish me luck ppl.

To everyone out there, always remain cheerful, appreciate yr friends, love yr dear ones, fillal to yr parents, be happy with what you have and have a great 2007 ahead. Work is secondary. ha.

Be optimistic ppl. Enjoyz.

How's christmas everyone? Heh. Caught in the rain? Encountered flash floods? Yep. Thats more like christmas in Singapore these days. December just gets bad. I remembered last year such similar incidents happened here as well.. the rain lasted for a week plus.. And it rained non stop near the christmas season. Hmm.. Deja Vu? Kind of. Its happening again this year.

Anyway, am very happy today coz the parcel which I've sent a few days back has finally reached Sher! (TO DARIUS: My gf name is SHER not TOODAR. Stop telling or 'informing' other ppl that my gf's name is toodar. -.-") <-- I'll continue on that later. Anyway. Yup, there was a slight delay though. Calculated and intended the parcel to reach Doha around Christmas Eve or the actual day itself.. well.. in ended up on Boxing Day instead. Heh. Speedpost being lazy eh? Ha. Nevertheless, at least it managed to reach there in one piece and in proper. Hee.. Ok so here's the picture of what I've got for her, packed nicely in the box..

Pink shawl together with a pocket watch tied around it. And 2R photos of the both us and a christmas card. heh. Exquisite.. Black and gold.. i like. hee.. Ok.. i may be too bhb. but who cares. ha..

Anyway, had a mini christmas countdown with the guys, lester n gf n a few of lester's friends. So Lester was asking me.. 'Hey chee mun, who's that girl in your photo? Your gf?' I was like ya.. and before i could say anything.. our mr darius cuts in n said 'ya. her name is toodar.' I'm like.. thanks ah darius. -.-" To think that lester nearly believed that her name is really toodar. -.-" So told him Sher's actual name.. but got bombarded by the guys... -.-" 'Mun..tell us why you call her toodar?' -.-". Hmm.. kpo bunch of ppl eh? Yup. So I shall repeat myself here.. n don't ask me anymore. haha.. Its just the way how couples call each other.. some call each other darling...dear... dar.. honey.. etc.. so we have our unique ways of calling each other.. toodar.. n i have no intention to explain y toodar. coz even if i do explain, u ppl probably just find it duh~! so ya. lets keep it as that ya. and again. Her name is Sher. Understand darius? hahaha...

The guys..

Ahh... With a blink of an eye, another year has passed. Still remembered last christmas how we got drunk in darius place.. and... we wrecked his room? haha.. we had someone breaking his bed.. two people playing guitars despite of his parents nagging.. one person reaching his hand in the toilet bowl to clear up some clog in there.. one crying at the balcony.. three people sharing the drinks while playing indian poker and all three went bonkers.. one idiot referred the cup as a bottle.. er.. cant remember the rest though.. So when there's a bunch of guys gathered together, celebrating some events or what so ever.. they have hard liquor and a place for them to lie for the night.. it simply meant nightmare. Or probably we're just bad at drinks. hahaha...

Thn again.. who cares. haha.. just that we got banned from having any parties there anymore. hahha.. right move auntie n uncle! haha... curb us from drinking that much as well. hee.. ok.. fu is still waiting for his 1 keg of beer... hmm.. new yr? ha.

Toodar.. hope you had an enjoyable christmas eve dinner with yr friends too.. :)

Enjoy this festive week peeps. Peace Out.

There I'll go again. Its the year end. Heh. Merry Xmas everyone. 2 days away? Yup, prob wont post one on that day so its an early one for everyone! haha..

Hmm.. let's see what I can bitch abt today. haha. Oh ya, went for some interview thing today.. kinda backfired. The fellow from agency is like, hmm.. its very hard for u to get into this sector coz u have no prior experience.. im like.. 'i know. thats y im looking for positions that dun need experience and u can learn before u climb up slowly?' So ya. Kinda tell me all the hardships that I might take if Im really changing to this other sector.. Hmm.. did I go there to look for jobs or I went there for a counselling session?! Hello. Anyway, I'll see what happens. Thn again, don't expect me to quit this to look for another one. This current one is going to save me from going broke. Ha. And of coz, you learn something along the way.. so ya. Learn while I search for a suitable one? January. More vacancies maybe? yep. till thn.

Oh, suddenly had the urge to take up the mass comm degree in SIM. Be it sucky or what. at least i can expand my jobscope.. now i feel trapped because im stuck with a fsv diploma with no relevance to other sectors. hai~! see what happens in 2007. should have a clearer picture by thn. sad ya?

Anyway, I've sent my toodar's pressie as well.. just hope it gets there in one piece (she knows it. so its not a big secret anyway. but of coz she doesnt know whats inside. -.-").. cant imagine those terminal fellows throwing the packages around.. *shakes head* there goes all the presentation in it. Maybe I'll need pictures to show how it should have been. haha.. Anyway, would love to see her reaction. Hee..

On the guys.. meet outs are like kinda fewer now (more on weekends now).. probably coz we're busy with work. Especially chris. Not even a day off yet. But he loves his job. so.. good for him. haha.. fu n me have to work till late most of the times. so ya, by thn we'll just feel like going home to rest. ok maybe not fu. he's weird. haha.. he can sleep at 4 plus and be at work at 9. who freaking hell sleeps so little and still be happy abt it? ok i don't. i need 6 at least. that'll keep me from dozing off in office. As you know.. editor is a very lonely job. sometimes, it gets so bored, u'll feel like running to the toilet and wash yr eyes to freshen yrslf up before u fight the battle. haha.. maybe i should learn to be like chris. get a big piece of note and fill it up with i 'love' my job. and whenever im fed up.. shout i love my job. haha.. probably get sued by him for copyright. haha. oops.

Long weekend. Finally. Festive week. good good.. I like.. can sleep longer.. slack longer.. hang out till late.. drink till u get drunk (last christmas.. its chaotic) .. chat with my toodar longer online too. heh. ok maybe the last part not that possible actually. she's busy with her studies there.. having exams week in week out.. and she's scoring 98 or full marks.. keep up the good work! think thats the most hardworking time in her life so far.. she doesnt even study this hard during school terms. ha. well well.. passion. ha.

hmm.. i don't even know if im heading a correct direction with a change of career path. after all that i have studied..and now im heading into an unknown area. but if i don't try.. i'll never know. some succeed, some don't. i just don't want to fall into the latter category. we'll see. when i do finally switch, wish me luck. cheers.

I seemed to like taking risks all the time. First is relationship. Now is career. Ha. I like to play with high stakes?! hai~! -.-"

Rainy sunday i should say. Spoilt the day too as well. Wanted to have a game of soccer with the guys and the standard beef noodle after morning soccer. heh. spoiled by the rain.. so anyway, stayed at home for the whole of today as well.. had something to do anyway. yup yup. had wrapped the whole pressie for my toodar. *so happy* heck. i was so impressed with myself, i took some pictures of it. but well, not gonna show it out now. coz someone reads my blog as well. heh.

so ya. monday again tomorrow, and more of a festive week coming up. with christmas and new yr hanging round the corner.. its time for some celebrations, parties and some new yr resolutions. but sad to say, cant celebrate this festive season with the person i most wanted to celebrate with.. toodar. its ok.. there are always other years. hmm lets take a look at my resolutions for 2006. (if i could remember)

1. apply n start to get a driving licence.. <-- postponed to 2007 it seems. haha..
2. getting a class 2 licence <-- not gonna take it anymore.. happy with 2a.
3. getting a job <-- yeah. checked. quitting soon as well. -.-"
4. i forgot abt the rest. hahha...

ya. probably, coz i didn't make any list and stick it up somewhere in my house whereby i can see it everyday. thats y i cant even remember what i wanted to do or get for 2006.

2006.. in general, has been a ok year. start of the year was really low though.. i believe all of u would still remember that at the start of the year i had an accident in johor on 1 jan itself. its like telling me, hey this is a bad yr. ya. had some trouble gaining back confidence in riding after that.. really took me sometime to regain all the composure in riding again. well.. have to thank the guys for being with me during that difficult period. the end of 2005 and beginning of 2006 was a very bad patch.. with my dad passing away.. thn my uncle.. thn my accident.. everything is not going right... things were running wild in my mind back thn. well, really battled my confidence and self beliefs back thn.. had the thinking of Y MUST IT BE ME kind of thing.. its like im flirting with depression? ha. thinking back, i probably had that too.. but luckily the later part of the year, everything begins to pick up.. mid yr.. was rather ok.. everything returns to normal.. nothing bad happened.. nothing fantastic happened either.. its just.. normal. ha. except im beginning to stress myself to look for jobs and wondering what am i going to do in the future.. (heck this thing still lingers in my mind till now. hahhaa) hmm.. what else.. mid yr.. busy with my police work back thn? ya with all the elections and so on. so ya thats abt it thn. End year.. from ok.. to good. yep. yr end has been rather positive.. ORD from NS (finally).. got a job (though quitting for greener pastures), know what im going for (abit least) , got to know sher whom later will be known as toodar (<-- definite highlight of year 2006).. had some troubles among friends during this period too.. but it has been put away, and some positives came out from it.. sher went to doha, but we strongly believed that we can pull through, both of us are still happy.. so ya. good to end 2006 in a rather positive note..

2007.. just hoping that the good will get better. plans so far are..

1. Get a new job.
2. Save up for Doha trip.
3. Car licence!!!
4. To have a stronger built.. more gym n swimming.
5. Pending for new ones to come into my mind. haha..

yep. thats it so far... happy holidays people. good nite. :)

Hmm... *hums* im very happy today .. coz i got what i wanted for toodar. hee.. (though spent alot of time walking n walking.. but heck who cares. its the end result that matters. hee..)

yup. now i need sleep. nitez.

Ahh.. I miss...











Anyway, happy birthday markie! (though its abt a day late. heh. should be 13/12/06) but its the thought that counts right? heh. like what you have said.. cant 'tiao er lang tang' anymore. haha.. bro, ur still in NS.. can afford to spend this december happily at least. hee.. enjoyz.

Ok. plans somewhat decided. Banking or Events. The answer will be revealed soon.

n.. toodar toodar toodar! ok im going mad. hahhaa...

Straightened out some thoughts finally.. after hearing and listening from everyone. Thanks ppl, for being the listening ear and giving me opinions. Well, this is what I've come to after long thoughts for the past few days.

In the end, I think editor is not my cup of tea. Not that I dislike media industry or whatsoever. Well, in a way, I don't suit into the life as an editor. Yes. Passion for Film, Sound & Video. But well, this passion in fact has long been dead. And I realised it already during part of my NS but I just don't believe it myself. I just wanna give it a shot to see if its due to the lack of practice or really the flame has died. Now that I've gave my shot. I've come to my verdict even though its abit too fast u may say. But hey, from a job that I'm supposed to be happy with it till a stage like this is terrible. To me, I think this is suited more for a hobby, something that I will still like to do.. but not professionally that is. I'm not someone that can sit down there for the whole day and communicate with the computer only. I mean I have a sharp butt (You know what I mean) I have to move around. Talk to ppl, get exposure and contacts and so on. Im not someone who can stay in office. At least, that little doubt in me has been confirmed. I don't see myself doing this kind of thing for the next 10 yrs. Which is also why, since I'm still young, to change a jobscope or industry all together. A new yr is coming soon.. and that might just be the day that I'm looking at a new perspective, new angle and new future. I've been in a mess for sometime. I think I was still able to clear this up. Sorry to those who believed that I can make it. I failed. Thanks to those who listened to my complains & naggings. Basically, toodar and the unbeatable bunch.

To my future endeavours, cheers.

Had a long chat with toodar last night.. she kinda brought me back to focus again.. Ha. Wake up call? Nah. Reassurance? Maybe. Its more like giving me a lift when I was really down. Thanks toodar. Your words really did make me clear up my thoughts. Heh. Wasn't myself for the past few days and irritating everyone out there complaining abt my job. Well, stress maybe. Ha. Thn again, Im in office now. Ya. Sat work. Sad eh? Well. Thats life.

Ha. read some horoscopes thing last night regarding gemini n aquarius while waiting for toodar to be online. Heh. too free maybe? But well, happy after reading it though:

Gemini & Aquarius

When Gemini and Aquarius come together in a love affair, the pair can enjoy a wonderfully stimulating mental connection. Gemini is in love with ideas, and visionary Aquarius is full of them. Both of these Signs need their independence; they can easily provide this for one another since they understand the need so well. The only trouble that may arise is if Gemini begins to think Aquarius is too stubborn in their thinking, or if Gemini dawdles a bit too much for Aquarius's fast-paced, forward-moving standards. This type of problem isn't likely to cause a major disturbance; in general they work very well together and understand one another on a very deep level.


Both Gemini and Aquarius have a great deal of energy. Both their minds are so quick they can easily come up with newer and better ideas and, with Aquarius's determination at the helm, put their ideas to action. They both rely on their quick wits, especially Gemini, and both Signs abhor wasting time. Aquarius can help Gemini focus if they begin to waver, but must take care to allow Gemini plenty of mental space and freedom. Gemini doesn't like to feel crowded or pushed into anything.


Aquarius is ruled by the Planets Saturn (Karma) and Uranus (Rebellion), and Gemini by the Planet Mercury (Communication). Saturn and Uranus combine their powers to lend Aquarius their progressive, original mind and the determination to put their ideas to good use. Aquarius is the great humanitarian of the Zodiac. Gemini is a great thinker and conversationalist, and can easily help out if Aquarius gets stuck on an idea and needs a little mental shove. Gemini's more flexible mind can greatly aid Aquarius in times of tension or rigidity.


Both Aquarius and Gemini are Air Signs. Their intellectual bond is strong and true. They're both quite social by nature; Gemini is witty and chatty, in love with impressing people with that quick and agile brain, and Aquarius loves all sorts of people. The more different kinds of people Aquarius knows, the better Aquarius feels in life. Both Signs' interests are multiple and wide-ranging. Gemini's penchant for good talks and debates is satisfied by the many experiences these two Signs are likely to share.


Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Gemini likes free flow; they prize independence and are very adaptable to change. Aquarius, on the other hand, is much more determined, even stubborn, and generally likes to take the lead in this relationship.


What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Aquarius relationship? Their ability to work together and provide one another with a sounding board for inspirations and flights of fancy. Their successful verbal interaction makes theirs a healthy relationship.

Hmm.. sounds good eh? I pretty hope so. Thn again.. don't read too much into it. Heh. And ya, toodar said some very touching words too. (Sorry not gonna say it here, heh) Sent me flying for some time. haha.. well. Am surely hoping that day will happen. :)

okay. back to work. my dvd's done. heh.

Hai~! Caught up with work recently. Guess what I told my toodar is so true. After she left for doha, there hasn't been a day i can leave around 1830. ha. Everyday is just work til late. Am really getting abit tired of it. Shit. Not forgetting I just joined this company recently. And im complaining that much. Damn. Have a feeling that I'm not suited for this industry after all. But thn again, only time will tell me the clearer picture. I've told myself not to push it too hard. Give myself time. But well, never was there a happy note whenever my bosses see the edits. I would always end up sitting there keeping quiet, waiting to make tonnes of changes. In fact. Morale is very low at work. Probably got into the company at the wrong time. The busy schedule. Whereby I have to find out everything on my own. (Good and bad in a way). Good-> Learn it the hard way. Bad-> Cant do work thats up to boss' expectations. Well, then again. They are in this industry for so long. How can I meet their expectations so fast? Persevere. I can do it. Cant go down that easily.

Crazy day again. I think Chris, QY n me are stressed up at work sometimes that when we meet up, all the lame stuffs start coming out. (Relief stress? Ha. At least we do have a good laugh) ha. Mark had a shock today as well. Oh ya, he just came back from Australia. And he's like woah. Now we are like complaining abt our jobs every once in a while. Ha. Diff from the day he left for Australia which is like, all of us were still wondering whats next in life after NS. Ha. Well, mark, darius and ryan. Yr time will come. Soon u'll just do the same. Heh. Oh ya. QY is leaving for States tomorrow. Shiok. 1 month long holiday. Damn cool. Enjoy yr time there gal. heh. One just came back now the other is going. Ha. Taking turns?

Ah. The thought of SIA is back again. Damn. Earlier I had been telling myself to go into the media industry before stepping into other areas. Now I'm in the industry, but how can the thought of SIA be back THAT fast. (Note: No influence from gf. No worries.) I've thought abt trying for air steward back at NS days. But well, I would like to gain exp in the media world first. If I really cant make it, thn alternatives will come. Am I telling myself that already? *shrugs* Why cant I decide on certain things sometimes and be clear of what I want? Hai~!.
Ok probably I'm just venting my frustrations here. Thats y its a blog. An outlet for the stress, so that new one will come in tomorrow. haha.. Yeah. It will. And yes toodar, I wont stress myself that much. Dun worry too much over there ya? :)

Wondering how's toodar doing over there now. So far, from what I've heard from her, everything seems good. Starting her 'school' soon. Ha. Yup. Oh ya. From the pictures, her room is big and spacious.. Hmm. at least they take care of their staff. Cant forget the day when she's leaving for Doha. She was nearly sent home coz the plane was overbooked. Im like.. WHAT company is this? Giving yr staff tickets to go and yet tell some of them to return home and come back again tomorrow? Hello.. its not like they are just carry small luggages for some holiday ya know?! Anyway, she was one of those lucky few that went in the end. No need to carry all the stuffs home and do the same things again the next day. Yeah. Talking abt her. Hai. I miss her. Ya. Sometimes, a simple msg from her can make my day. Easily contented? Nah. Just... nvm. Hard to explain. K k.. before anyone complains abt goosebumps.

Ok. time to relax myself and have the correct mindset to fight another battle tomorrow. Ha. Having war at work everyday man. Heh. Ciaos.

Photos time!

Simply, 2 people brushing their teeth.


Sing along session in Genting..


Enjoying the cool breeze.

Tootz @ Genting..

2 sleepy looks.

So there she goes.. to Doha for the next 3 yrs. Its kinda a mixed feelings for me. Happy for her.. yet.. i know i'll miss my toodar for at least 1/2 yr before she can fly back to sg. Anyway, this post will be dedicated to her.. (will have goosebumps for others.)

Toodar,
If I were to say I'm happy to see you board the plane, I must be joking. I thought both of us can handle the bid goodbye situation and leave on a ok note. How wrong was I. Everything had been going on fine. Preparing the stuffs, having dinner with yr family, going to airport, checking in n so on.. Its only when you enter the gates to the restricted zone that I cant go, thats where it really hit me. Hard. Even though I was supposed to be well prepared for this day, not to tear n such. I failed to do that. The moment I saw u walk through the gates, I realised that for the next 1/2 yr or so, I don't have you to style my hair.. you to hold my hand.. you to hug and listen to my 101 ways of calling toodar, you to sit close to me and chat till the cows come home.. you to accompany me when im working late.. you to kiss and love. Without U. But well, now onwards, its all emails, webcam, msn, blogs etc. Funny that we kept singing FIR's Tian Tian Ye Ye. Ha.

Ok, all those 'sad' notes aside, I would really want you to enjoy yourself over there. Explore the world and go do the things that u really wanted. But pls take note. Go easy on the Guccis and Pradas. (You know what I mean) Ha. Remember yr limit. 3 months - 1 bag. Thats what we agreed right? haha..

And well, toodar u better remember yr bf here and don't go astray. haha. I'll be always waiting for your return. We've still have loads of stuffs that we have not done yet. We may suffer for abit now, but it'll be better in the future. I Still Believe.

toodar.. the special chemistry between us can never be explained. it may seemed like a short time since we got together but its like we knew each other for a long time. ha. where were you for the past 22 yrs? regardless of how everyone out there may think, i believe in you, in myself and in this relationship. We can go the distance despite of all the concerns out there. JUNE.. Im coming..*muacks*